PiLs

Hello to no-one in particular.  The great thing, if there is such a thing about totally and utterly abandoning a project (for over a year) is that it's unlikely anyone will notice I'm back - which means I could post pictures of me waxing my lady bits without causing so much as a blip on the statmeter...but I'll refrain from doing so all the same in case someone should accidentally end up on this page while browsing for end tables. So, I notice it has been a very fooking long time since I posted anything, so long in fact the platform disabled my account.  Luckily (luckily?) this was reversible and I'm now determined to get back and stay on the horse that threw me. To cut a long and dreary story short, I had a bit of a breakdown.  Well, it was 20 years overdue.  So now I've had it, I can get on with the business of life and you can be 100 pc sure that when I offer little insights into tricks of the mental health trade - you can take comfort in the fact that I'm talking from experience.  Crazy as it sounds, I highly recommend one.  There is nothing like a good old fashioned breakdown to put your life in order and sort your priorities out.  I'll spare you the details but my episode was the culmination of 20 years of denial stemming from unresolved bereavement.  I'm glad to say I'm better and now, thanks to therapy, also armed with the tools to ensure I never get that bad again.  It means I'm allowed off days without the paranoia and worry that I'm slipping down that water slide again.  I now control  my off days - you might say, I am in control of my moods and it's a refreshing development.  I do love being grumpy every now and again.  Nothing would get done otherwise. The trick is to "sit and spend time" with yourself whenever you feel down, odd, angry, sad or unsettled to gain clarity on the 'why?' behind these feelings. You'd be surprised what you come up with and what comes up.  Not every mood means you're manic.  And before you go diagnosing yourself with low self esteem or depression, make sure you're not surrounded by assholes.  That will be all for now.