Living With What I Know For Sure

I want to turn the tone around here.  Agreed - it’s been a difficult few months mostly filled with the potency of having to swallow bitter pill after bitter pill but with the help of Hare Krishna (no joke - it's a powerful mantra), yoga and really the very best of friends, I am slowly turning this freighter around and emptying it of its toxic contents.  All of this while navigating the emotionally super charged time of Christmas, uncertainties at work, the soul-sucking properties of winter (and an especially cold one at that) plus careful consideration of the feelings and emotional welfare of a truly amazing little cherub of a girl.  My girl.  

Of course the stress of it all gave me shingles.  I don’t recommend it.  But somehow here we are 5 months later having crossed all of that terrain more successfully than I could have hoped.  If I’d been given the above as a “to do” list on paper, I would most certainly have crumbled.  But the universe provides and God (I refer to the divine self not a fella with a white beard) truly works in mysterious ways.  Those ways have seen me put half a year between the demise of a 10 year relationship almost without noticing.  I’ve learnt then that life passes you by in the blink of an eye if you let it.  Sure shit stuff like break-ups are welcome to pass at the speed measure used in E=MC²  but that’s it.   

I am now committed to living in technicolour again – something I guess I haven’t done in a decade if I am totally and completely honest with myself.  And so onto another phase that I will call – living with what I know for sure…or trying to.  So for instance, what I know for sure today is that I woke up healthy, my Lishy is amazing, I have a job and roof over my head and I have the most incredible friends.  

What I also know for sure is that I deserved and deserve better than the mediocre man that turned out to be a liar, a cheat and a coward.  Still, he must have some deep rooted wounds too and I wish him well.  

To him and everyone living half heartedly I recommend Oprah's book:  What I Know for Sure.  May it help you as it has done me.  Love and Light.