I want to turn the tone around here. Agreed - it’s been a difficult few months
mostly filled with the potency of having to swallow bitter pill after bitter
pill but with the help of Hare Krishna (no joke - it's a powerful mantra), yoga and really the very best of
friends, I am slowly turning this freighter around and emptying it of its toxic
contents. All of this while navigating
the emotionally super charged time of Christmas, uncertainties at work, the
soul-sucking properties of winter (and an especially cold one at that) plus careful
consideration of the feelings and emotional welfare of a truly amazing little
cherub of a girl. My girl.
Of course the stress of it all gave me
shingles. I don’t recommend it. But somehow here we are 5 months later having
crossed all of that terrain more successfully than I could have hoped. If I’d been given the above as a “to do” list
on paper, I would most certainly have crumbled.
But the universe provides and God (I refer to the divine self not a
fella with a white beard) truly works in mysterious ways. Those ways have seen me put half a year
between the demise of a 10 year relationship almost without noticing. I’ve learnt then that life passes you by in
the blink of an eye if you let it. Sure
shit stuff like break-ups are welcome to pass at the speed measure used in E=MC² but that’s
it.
I am now committed to living in
technicolour again – something I guess I haven’t done in a decade if I am
totally and completely honest with myself.
And so onto another phase that I will call – living with what I know for
sure…or trying to. So for instance, what
I know for sure today is that I woke up healthy, my Lishy is amazing, I have a
job and roof over my head and I have the most incredible friends.
What I also know for sure is that I deserved
and deserve better than the mediocre man that turned out to be a liar, a cheat
and a coward. Still, he must have some
deep rooted wounds too and I wish him well.
To him and everyone living half heartedly I recommend Oprah's book: What I Know for Sure. May it help you as it has done me. Love and Light.
